Last summer I decided to go vegan strong for 4 months, the changes I felt were insane!
First off, i'll admit it was difficult as hell! I realized that if I didnt plan ahead, I literally was pulling an anorexic style diet. "Shit I cant eat that..well gulp of air it is!" I was completely uneducated about what exactly I should and should not be eating. There was so much information out there and yet I still felt clueless to what I was supposed to replace animal products with to still receive the proper nutrition. Long story short, instead of researching more I simply quit. I went back to eating animal products slowly but surely, and the promise I had made to myself had been broken. When shifting my diet back to animal products I became sick, but not sick enough to change. Luckily, I gradually changed my diet so I didn't shock my body as much. Since last summer, I still haven't had red meat. Oh goodness I'm sure ill straight up throw up all of my insides if I ever consume it! lol! But I did get back to eating a little dairy, greek yogurt and cheese. Now, for the last three months I have started doing intermittent fasting, which is a life changer as well!! It changed the whole way I looked at food. When I went vegan, I looked at it as im eating healthy and im helping the planet. During that time I also felt like food was on my mind 24/7 and I still seeked pleasure from my meals. I ate a lot of processed carbs when I was vegan, and shit dont get me started with the vegan brownies, cookies and cakes!! Drooling!! Intermittent fasting taught me that there is more to life than to think about eating, as well as to think of food as simply fuel for my body, not to seek pleasure from it! I had two meals a day and two snacks. I would prep my food the night before and BAAM! All that packing 7 meals was over! It honestly simplified my life in so many factors. I lost weight and it was one of the most challenging diets I had ever done. Which felt good to accomplish, I saw results I hadn't seen with any other diet. The downside of it was that I started binge eating a lot on cheat meals. I knew it was wrong and honestly I can confess I had developed an eating disorder. So I cried one night. Hating every part of my brain that couldn't control fat Anna's impulses to eat everything in sight. My life seemed to be going so well with my career, my daughter and my relationships and the one thing I couldn't control was what I was eating, and the desire to give in to all the process foods in the world. To sit at dinner and have multiple chocolate orgasms and not give a fudge!! (oh can it be hot fudge too! lol)
Its been quite the journey for me with all these diets and my eating disorders. Lets call it what it is. I'm not ashamed, but once again, in sharing this I hope I can help out the millions of people who struggle with their food addictions. Ive been practicing yoga religiously now and I highly recommend it. It is such a healing activity for the mind and soul. It helped me really focus on the present and stay in touch with my body and soul. To be honest, I don't know when it clicked to just simply not want to eat processed sugars or binge on food, but it was definitely not an overnight transformation! Its sticking to something and staying consistent. I have immersed myself in all the information about nutrition. First, I educated myself on how the body works. What does the body need to survive?! What kind of foods heal you not kill you!
Thats the secret my friends, before I eat anything I ask myself that question. "Will this heal me, fuel my body, or slowly kill me." Trust me, sometimes i'm like "kill me brownie!! Kill me slowly!! I don't give a fuuu," but then I feel sick because my body is like "yep this brownie is definitely killing us." So I encourage you to seek information on how the body works instead of reading the new fad diet. Trust me I've tried them all! Im here to help you out! Im here to tell you no matter where you are how deeep you are in your food addiction you can, and will overcome it.
Before you read about any food plan you have to start with healing your soul. Many of us have made food an addiction because we are emotionally unstable. Its much deeper then just having a sweet tooth. You have to read books and blogs about connecting your body with your mind and soul. You cant keep going on in life not thinking of how important food is to your body. I recommend reading Deepak Chopra. This man has truly changed my life. His words open doors to visions and new ideas that literally give me chills. At the same time, after im done reading im like, "well duh!" Life becomes simpler when you learn to connect your body with your mind and soul.
My next blog will be fun! About easy smoothies that taste delicious, kid approved, and packed with nutrients!
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